Category: the end, middle and beginning
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1. this heavy heart
when you first both discoverthe love you have for each otherthat whole hearted loveit’s a miraculous thingthey’re all you think aboutthey’re all you want to do good forall you want to be amazing forand the affection is overflowingout of flower potsin your bedroomand the flowers don’t seem to die then…
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2. toxic
i tried the best i couldto be the best i couldfor even the worst of youjust so you could bethe best you could for mebut the best i could wasn’t good enoughto make you the best you could be for me. and even when i see the sun shiningfrom your…
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3. you will never forget
dear Love,i find you in my mindin my morning, my nightmy dreams, my strolls through the parkyou’re everywhere i goeven when you’re standingat someone else’s door. dear Love,you’ve torn out my heartand left ityet i still come back for moreyou’ve shackled it to the floorand kept itand that’s okaybecause i’m…
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4. i can’t forgive you
i gave you my heart, every little part, and you broke it you took all the pieces and spread them apart and now they’re lost i’m lost and I know I love you deep down inside and I want to leave all the hurt behind but I can’t because I’m…
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5. fragile
i can’t be the emotional rock anymore i’m not a rock, i’m a sunflower and while i may be the tallest and the strongest i’m just a flower -gabina
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6. the aftermath
i lay numb in my loss paralyzed in my nothingness it was not that i didn’t love me, because i did it was not that he didn’t love me, because he did it just wasn’t enough it wasn’t random i love you’s it wasn’t warmth in my wounds it wasn’t…
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7. i’m holding on
even after all this time even after all those lies even after all the pain you were the light at the end of the tunnel. you were the tunnel and the light and you see that’s what got me.
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8. his burns left scars
time is mocking me looking down at me laughing grinning in his power to race through happiness and slow churn the burns of sorrow. i pray to you every night, time, please erase him from me.
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9. depression
shadows shadows on the wall watch them rise and watch them fall
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10. love lost
i travelled to the sea to hear your remedies and stripped myself bare so i could feel you there.
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11. his text messages
look at you doing it again to me. before it felt like love now it feels like manipulation. i thought that i would never recover from you and though i still have not you no longer haunt me or spread weeds through my freshly groomed soil.
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12. i am my own
those cracks in the earth are you in my skin deep with no chance of merging but i am an entire desert and you can only go so deep and stretch so far until you dwindle off to meet where i am whole again. your cracks have shaped me not broken me.
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13. loving myself
i found home in myself and when i did that nothing else mattered. my pains ached a little less my walls deteriorated my heart had seeded flowers. i found home in myself and when i did that everything else mattered my pains were not sadness they were growth my vulnerability was a blessing my heart did not fear blooming.
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14. appreciation
not much has changed but everything has changed today, i have everything not long ago, i had nothing. i do not have all that i hope and dream of i have not met all my goals but i have everything.
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15. stronger now
you make me melt. i didn’t think that i would ever melt again but here i am on the floor though, this time it’s different when i look at you there’s a small fire erupting in my stomach that quickly catches all of the pieces and turns them to mush…
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16. i forgot what it feels like
if a single syllable utters from my lips in the middle of an orchestra your attention is mine. how it feels to be seen by eyes that glow from the gods eyes so sweet that i am instantly a puddle at your feet.
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17. scared of commitment
you are now you are nights running through the streets taking the shoes off my feet kisses underneath palm trees. you are now you are wine and cheese in the sand holding my hand through alley’s sharing ice cream before dinner. you are now you are tickles in the sheets listening to me and all my dreams even the nightmares that…
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18. you make me feel
your eyeslaying over meis the most beautiful feelingi have ever felt.
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19. easy love
i knew what love was theni had felt iti had flowngrownmeltedand burned in it. and while every love was differentthey were all the samecompared to you. you seethey were all wrongand youare right.
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20. at peace with you
i found my peace in the crisp autumn airin the birds chirping over therein the sun melting into my skinin the small tingle of the wind. i found peace in your starein knowing that you were therein your efflorescent laughwhen it’s tangled up in minein the way your fingertips falldown…
a girl on a bench 