a girl on a bench

you pass by me
your eyes
wandering the walls
and mine
wandering to you

I act like 
it's all okay
like your cold shoulder 
just needs some melting
like leaving forever
is nothing

you don't understand me 
you make me feel like 
i don't understand me
but when you walk away
i understand it all 
because
it's not just my heart
that's hurting
but my limbs are
too
it's hard to breathe
when i'm away 
from you
your ice leaves a frost
fog pours from my mouth
and i don't want you 
near me now

because
when you leave
it's hard to breathe
and
i'd rather get frostbite
than feel the tease
of your warmth
melting my heart
when i see your eyes
wandering the walls 
your skin
no longer mine at all. 
-gabina