a girl on a bench

i found home in myself 
and when i did that 
nothing else mattered. 
my pains ached a little less 
my walls deteriorated 
my heart had seeded flowers. 

i found home in myself 
and when i did that 
everything else mattered 
my pains were not sadness 
they were growth 
my vulnerability was a blessing 
my heart did not fear blooming.