a girl on a bench

it wasn’t that i wanted you, even though i did
it was that i knew i couldn’t have you
and i was fine with it
but i wasn’t fine with the fact that
i couldn’t let your aura go
and it haunted me
as i realized it was someone like you
who i wanted
who i didn’t have
who i knew i had to go on
living without.

-a.absi

image by Author on 35mm film